The shortest day of the year, reminds me of the quote from Thomas Fuller, “It is always the darkest before the dawn.” (Scientifically this is not true. It is darkest at 180 degrees.) For the Solstice, the darkest day gives way to increasingly more light. As a metaphor, it offers encouragement to those who experience darkness in their lives. For some this encouragement (light) is God, therapy, sobriety, truth or another choice that brings them out. 

With this in mind I pulled cards.

Past: You refused to take any responsibility for a bad situation. You believe all the negative criticism you have heard in your life, from yourself or others.  NOTE: this is the darkness

Present: Cut the crap! Stop denying any truth. Confront inaccuracies. Note: this is the light coming in.

Future: Victory. The chance to put it all together and create something special is upon you. Note: This is the dawn, using your truth for a brighter day.

 Summary: When you find yourself in a situation
you do not like, explore it by asking yourself questions about it. Try as hard as you can to
be honest with yourself about it. When you are
able to get to the core, it will not have the same effect as it did initially and chances are you will
feel victorious.

 If you’d like to know how I worked with it please read on.

My thoughts:

Past: Well! Excuse me! It wasn’t my fault that many people in my life have been crazy critical!  Combining some *Ho'oponopono and tapping techniques I have learned I explored my reaction by asking myself questions like: “Am I responsible for this?”  and “Is this true?" The conclusion I came to was that other people’s behavior had nothing to do with me. I just needed to chill out, do the best I could and not worry. Why couldn’t I do this in the past? Blaming people didn’t do me any good, no matter how justified.

And, crud! Why do I criticize myself so much? Why do I replay the criticism from others? My anger at others was just anger at myself. “Stop saying all those mean things! It won’t help to beat me down!” As a teacher I dealt with the old name calling daily: “so-n-so called me do-do head”. It was at about the 1000th time hearing my response that it dawned on me that I was talking to myself. “Is that true? Are you a do-do head?” They would always say very confidently, “No, I am not.”

Present: Truth? The truth is I am an intelligent, creative, contentious person. Most of the criticizing I received in the past was not true but I allowed it to effect me down to the core. Current truth exploration is helping me discover things that make my heart sing. This leaves less room for criticism.

Future: Now that I have decided to apply truth to situations that cause friction and take responsibility for everything that goes on in my life, I have found greater success in alleviating it. This combined with a better understanding of who I am is leading to victory.   

Love, Light and the strength to see it,

Tricia

*More on this to come.